I am freaking out because I am not freaking out

Understand my words? This is regarding my Diploma-Semester 4 result. It will be release/announce on this friday, 27th April 2012.

I have lived up to 20 years. Therefore I know why I didn't freak out and act calm. Maybe my instinct are wrong, but so far, it is always correct!

Anyway, whenever I act calm, like there is nothing happen, where else, my result will be coming out in few days, that is mean, my result won't be as great as I hope it will be. It will be moderate........ by moderate I mean moderate... not so impressive. Whatever it is, do say ALHAMDULILLAH okay faris fikri!

And whenever my heart beats fast, I act terribly nervous and FREAKING OUT, good news will arrive.. News that I have been waiting for!! KUN FAYA KUN

Thus, I am freaking out now because I didn't feel the feeling that I should feel, feeling that I want me to feel, so that I will get what I hope for.. But people do says, "expect the unexpected". Starting from now till this friday, I will squeeze my brain till I found the answer. The answer that will be the words that I will be using to tell my parents about my result.

I hate telling them the unimpressive result.

Pinhole Camera Outing - by Lomorangers

As Salam/Good Evening.

Ahaaa the above conversation, secara tak sengaja ter-jealous-kan RUN okayhh! hahaha. Ampun ye Run!

Anyway, The Lomorangers will be helding a Public Event called DIY Pinhole Camera & Outing sempena World Pinhole Day! When & Where is it?

When : 29th April 2012

Where : KLCC Park

Ape itu PINHOLE?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pinhole_camera

Apa itu World Pinhole Day?

http://www.pinholeday.org/org/

What you need to bring?

1. Gunting / Pisau

2. Gam

3. Black marker

4. Pin

5. Kepingan tin air minuman

6. Canister besi

7. Filem berISO rendah

8. Getah

9. Tape hitam

10. Duit (untuk bayaran material yang akan dicetak untuk 'mencipta' kamera pinhole anda sendiri)

Material tu pihak Lomorangers akan sediakan, you just kena bawa duit, less than RM5 kata Kak Rem. Oh and you kena inform Kak Rem Munir yang you nak material tu atleast before friday can ah? Lagi cepat lagi better la.

Ini Kak Rem punya FB : http://facebook.com/rem.munir

Pin tu, jarum peniti boleh, pin tudung also can.

Canister besi tu, keronsong filem yang sudah kosong (boleh minta di kedai gambar)

Segala semua info & gambar saya ambil dari FACEBOOK. Thank you. ;]

p/s; contoh bentukp pinhole camera untuk that day ada dalam FB Kak Rem, ;]

Bad Habit

Urgh. Back-pain, buttock are in pain also. hahaha. I sat too long in front of the computer. This is my bad habit. Once I am online, phiuwwwww I will stay online up to 8hours non-stop.

Ni pun dah 4hours. For God sake! Why I can't limit myself. I mean control myself. Not enough discipline.

LA #1

LA stand for Laugh Alone la bro. Not Los Angeles. hehe

As Salam/Good Morninggggggg!!! Kalau dulu-dulu waktu sekolah, excited sangat bangun awal on weekends, sebab cerita cartoon start pukul 7.00 a.m. Tapi sekarang, since masuk Universiti ni, OVER-excited gilaaa bangun pagi on weekends, kalau dekat rumah la, sebab nak tengok cartoon yang lamaaaaa gila tak tengok.

Bakbukbek, tak ada cerita-nya. Punya la hampa. Kali ni cartoon banyak start pukul 10 a.m. derrrr & the cartoon tak se-best cartoon dulu-dulu. How much i miss my old times.. Oh anyway, yesterday,

Me: (I came down the stairs..)

Mum: Amboih! Ketatnya seluar! Seluar siapa tu?

Me: Uh? Mana ada ketat. Mine. Erm sebab dia hitam, tu yang nampak ketat. (muka confident)

Me: (Would like to have my lunch on the dining table.. suddenly)

Me: Ya Allah ketatnya seluar ni!

I wore skinny jeans, black colour. I have two skinny jeans. I do not know why, the black one is more tighter than the grey. Any theory? hehe

Saya tak ada jeans, percaya tak? Would like to have one, at least.. Ada usha few, need money to buy it.. Soonn... as soon as I received my first month salary from UNKNOWN employer. Oh dudeeee! This is so frustrating tahu tak, bila tak ter-hired by anyone where else kawan-kawan lain semua sedang gaining money & experience.

Dari cuti 2 bulan, dah jadi 1 bulan setengah dah. And soon akan jadi 1 bulan. ='[ sadis

Oh di-kesempatan ini, I would like to wish to Fauzi Omar & all Politechnic's student yang bakal mengharungi FINAL EXAM starting next week onward, ALL THE BESTTTT!! Don't ever ever ever give-up even the subjects are killing you sampai nages-nages nak faham & hafal.

Eight Seasons MPO Concert,

As Salam. Uwuwuwuwuw ;'[

Belek-belek akhbar New Straits Times bertarikh 12th April 2012. Tiba-tiba ternampak iklan ni. 5hari dah lepas weh.. Seats yang RM30 pun dah habis di-booked. Tinggal RM92 & RM122 je.

Performance:

Vivaldi - The Four Seasons

Piazzolla - The Four Seasons

Conducted by Torsten Janicke (violin)

Ayah pun nak pergi sebab dia kata dia suka music-music yang tiada suara. You know, kalau balik kampung, selalunya malam-malam, ayah suka buka lagu-lagu macam ni. Uwwhh bestt!

SE to : WNA & others,

Assalamualaikum. This entry is special to WNA & others.

Okay, first and for most, I am used to that thingy. What thingy? those name-calling yang people called me. Since primary school. And I am okay with it. Not really okay, but I am trying to pretend it is okay so that my mind won't think about it anymore, therefore I can live happily ever after, eceyy. Mind-setting people, mind-set!

Okay, ever since primary school, I've never ever ever reported any gangguan emosi/mental to my family or teachers. I just tak suka report-report. Malas. Not me. "Cikgu dia buat saya...." erkkk. Itu kalau dah desperate gilaaaaaa baru report dekat cikgu, but i will never report at my parents. Ewwwwww, yukkkss! Saya memang anak bongsu, tapi saya tak suka report2 hokayyy.

Selepas itu, masuk Form4-Form5 Alhamdulillah I can manage my feeling well whenever ada those 'jnsdjch' people calling me ksakjwdkj. Tak rasa marah, just kadang-kadang dalam hati sumpah seranah la of course! hahahaha. Alah budak-budak my batch yang dulu selalu DID IT pun dah makin matang, cuma some of budak-budak juniors yang SUPERstup*dos je.

Masuk UiTM, Ya Allah, Syukur ke hadrat Ilahi, rasa peace gilaaaaaaaaaaaaa ke apa! Seriously dah takda dah suara-suara sumbang kedengaran. Alhamdullilah! But tak syok la life kalau tak ada ups & downs. Takan la forever je you nak bahagia kan, itu dalam syurga la. InsyaAllah. Ia appear kembali waktu 2nd intake budak baya kami & juniors. 1st intake selalu budak-budak baik, matang. 2nd intake je, biasalah nakal-nakal sikit.

Selalunya kalau dengar orang panggil those sweety words, I won't pandang pun. Sebab malas nak layan. Kalau layan, nanti makin menjadi-jadi, jadi biarlah dia senyap sendiri. Tetapi, sebab dah lamaaa tak dengar, tiba-tiba terdengar, I just toleh la nak cari dari mana ia datang, tuptup, hummm a group of adik-adik comel rupanya. Biarlah, mereka tak matang lagi ;]

Dalam kes macam ni saya prefer berdiam diri dari melawan. Lain pula dengan kawan saya yang dua orang tu.. haha. S & N. Dorang pantang, habis nanti kena dengan mulut mereka. huwhuw (tak digalakkan yee)

Erm next, soal I AM A POSITIVE PERSON. Actually guys, I am not entirely positive all the time okay? Tak normal la kalau putih memanjang. Kan? Okay, at certain time, yes, saya bersikap positif, tarbiyah diri sendiri. Tapi at certain time, I need others to remind me to think positive. Saya pernah je bersikap negative, tapi saya selalu terdengar/dengar orang sekeliling cakap words yang buat saya berfikir, OH FARIS, YOU SHOULDN'T ACT LIKE THIS AND THIS.. Siapa yang bagi saya dengar, of course la ALLAH S.W.T. Alhamdulillah.

What else aa? Ahhh, I am really grateful ada kawan-kawan macam korang semua. Tak semua orang suka kita, jadi kita tak boleh suruh orang suka kita. Kawan-kawan selalu ada by my side. WNA, terima kasih sebab perkara ni, awak sampai mengalirkan liquid jernih. Such a true friend la you! miawmiaw. haha.

Last week punya status, saya bukan minta simpati, it just, bila terdengar tu, rasa sakit hati (rawrr rawrr), my mum's phone pun dekat, ter-update la ia. Lepas post tu rasa, eh betul ke ni, first time aku bagitau dekat public. I should fikir betul-betul. Tapi sebab dah post, tak kisah la you delete or what, people dah baca. Tak semua pun, ada juga yang dah baca kan.

Kadang-kadang tu saya rasa segan, bukan segan apa, tapi segan dengan parents anak-anak kecil itu. Segan kalau parents dia terdengar anak dia cakap benda macam tu. Sebab nanti, mesti la parents dia lagi super-segan dengan saya. Can u imagine it? Alhamdulillah mak dia tak dengar haritu, and and, I act macam biasa je la.

I can forgive, I just can't forget. ;]

I am afraid

As Salam. Hai! Harini I followed Zamir to UiTM Kuala Pilah, accompanying him to submit the kertas kerja for next semester. We went to see our Physics' lecturer, who is also the Society of Science consultant. Zamir needs her signature, disamping tu we talked..

Ask her what she's doing while we're on our break, sebab Degree student dekat kampus kami tak ada yang ambil physics, so lecturer physics suppose free la kan. Rupanya they aren't free lah! Busy with others, research, conference etc.. I thought being a lecturer is as easy as being a school Teacher. Lain okay.. lecturer ni EXTREME sikit! haha you kena buat research etc... lecturer thingy, I malas nak ulas lanjut.

Oh then we talked about next semester, how many classes for physics? She said 1. We are shocked! Because if I am not mistaken, ramai kut student yang dah changed from human anatomy to material science. Then she continues, she said, they are preparing to open few mores sebab results for biology ramai yang didn't do it well.

Well people, I put my hands up! Because I might be one of them. So what I am freaking-out about? On 27th April 2012, our result will be announce & send to our email. If I did bad in my biology AGAIN this time..... my result either will be worst than last semester or maintain at the same position.

I know, I should redha & be okay with it... If I didn't get what I want, mungkin itu bukan rezeki saya. Setiap apa yang berlaku ada hikmah disebaliknya. Dan Allah menguji seseorang berdasarkan kemampuannya. Tak ada rezeki time ni, next time, dalam benda lain, akan ada. InsyaAllah (With Allah will).

I am extremely TAKUT sekarang.. Oh faris fikri, erase the word IF! Stop IF-ing something. CHILL LA BRO! Gigit gigi sekarang. arrrrrr

Finding a job,

As Salam. Hai people! Haha. Hurm, yesterday I went to find a job during my semester break. I went to Starbucks & Dome. Starbucks said that they will call on Friday, while Dome said they will call today..

I didn't receive any call from Dome today, so that's mean I didn't get it right? Hahh.. DOME are hiring now, I wonder why they didn't call me. Haha. Mungkin bukan my rezeki kut. And maybe because when they asked when can I start working, I said, next week.

I am not delaying. It just, my family planned a trip. Actually my Dad wishes to go for a trip/holiday with the whole family. Memandangkan, this weekend everyone cuti. My 2nd brother tengah midsem break, saya tengah sem break, my sister & my brother can apply for cuti. HAH

We actually planned to go to Miri, Sarawak. But then there's few things yang tak dapat dielakkan, lalu we've changed it to anywhere in Semenanjung Malaysia, then my sister cakap dia nak pergi Pulau, we've searched... but not confirm yet

Tuptup orang kampung which is our aunts, uncles, they invited us to come to their house this weekends sebab dorang buat kenduri sikit. Kalau satu, boleh excuse kut, tapi DUA. On friday night 1, on saturday night 1. And yeahhh we chose to balik kampung, it will be fun, InsyaAllah. ;]

Oh back to the story of finding a job, erm actually my permanent at iSetan KLCC called few days after I've finished my final exam, he said that he is looking for a part-timer. I would love to accept the job, it just, I want to try working in different department this time. Huhu

I missed working at Kenny Rogers, it were fun! Moving here & there, running, walking, jatuh-ing, kena-marah-ing haha! I really enjoyed it. I want moreeee!! Years ago when I was in secondary school, I really wanted to work at Starbucks, but at that time, I am under age brother! And now I am 20 years old. Unfortunately, Starbucks minimum period of working are 3 months. Well well... mungkin lepas habis diploma baru ada chance working at the Starbucks. Can't wait!!

Hurmm.. Any idea where should I ask for a job? Place yang synonym with Starbucks, Dome... hehe. Thank youuuu!! ;]

Sad face. =(

First time tak dapat kolej weh.. Sedihnya.. Empat semester berturut-turut dapat duduk dalam, tu pun ada pertolongan jawatan Seketriat Kolej. Bila dah takde jawatan ni, result je yang dapat tolong.

Hanya student dekan je dapat duduk dalam kolej. Uhuuu so thats mean... Okay takpe saya faham. Anyway, next semester baru la start life as a Non-Resident dengan Kamarul. Kami akan menetap di rumah sewa Zamir yawww! (happy lettew zamir aku tak dapat kolej.haha)

Anyway, I am looking forward to this NEW environment. Ececece, selama ni duduk dalam kampus kan. Haha. Hurmm, two semesters left. ;]