At my lowest,

 

Attitude

Bismillah. Alhamdulillah all praise goes to Allah, I am still live, able to breath-in oxygen. Attitude, to me it is some sort of a head to a body. I have been given so many chances, yet I blew it, by my attitude. Procrastination is one part of it. I, myself allowing it to be one of the habit. I have so much to share with myself regarding the causes (my wrong steps) and impacts.. and what should I do to rise upon it. InsyaAllah will continue my writing soon.

As for now, I would like to share my personal Gantt Chart to myself, whom I called "Goals to Grad". I hope nobody reading this as this blog has been temporary-longdead. I am freakinggggg need my long-lost-enthusiasm

Swing-ing

Assalamualaikum.

This morning, I frankly ask my mother, "Mak, mak tahu Pricewaterhouse tak?"

Mak cakap "Apa taktahu pulak"

And.............................. I started to get excited cerita pasal I have a friend, dah graduated from Chemical Engine, blablabla, n now masuk accounting firm. I told my mother how excited I am.. And about my current studies.. about last semester, and previous.. about how I am passionate when it comes to NUMBERS la in general nya..

Well, I keep on mourning pasal my degree ni banyak theory la, banyak membaca la, subject yang excited me so far adalah accounting tu. Seronoknya Allah je yang tahu bila wujud subject tu dalam senarai subjek semester-2. The only subject yang aku jadi diri aku. Maksud aku, aku tak rasa malas nak study, aku rasa berbaloi stay-up study memalam, rasa semangat membara-bara study.

Allahu akbar! 

Mak cakap "Tak kesah la nanti nak masuk mana"

AHA! Alhamdulillah. Selama ni bila aku cakap pasal accounting semua ni, mak akan cakap "Tak payah la masuk accounting, you will be bored, everyday hadap numbers, benda yang sama bila dah kerja nanti". Indeed aku agree dengan apa mak kata. Betul. That is based on her own experiences. Dia dah quit kerja pun at the age of 40++.

Tapi tadi. Dengar mak cakap macam tu. Tiba-tiba aku rasa sebak. Teary eyes.. Haha. Aku cakap dengan mak, InsyaAllah, I want to finish my current degree dulu, kerja dalam field degree aku ni dulu minimum 2 years, lepas tu baru decide nak buat apa untuk serterusnya.

"...Boleh jadi kamu suka sesuatu, tapi ia amat buruk bagi kamu.. Dan boleh jadi kamu benci sesuatu tapi ia amat baik bagimu. Sesungguhnya Allah tahu apa yang kamu tidak tahu...."

Aku. Mungkin minat nombor. Perakauanan mungkin bukan untuk aku. Cuma ia menguja aku.

Cuba la kau tanya aku matematik. kalkulus. statistik. Subjek yang I used to love and score. Aku dah lupa. Aku taktahu dah macam mana nak buat. Aku buntu. Rasa stress pula. Aku nak ajar orang yang perlu bantuan. Tapi aku dah tak ingat apa apa. Rasa kecewa dengan diri.

Maaf. ;]

Another sub-topic

Assalamualaikum. Haiiii!! Ya Allah rindunya. ;]

It has been 12 days I'm working with Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf, short name, CBTL or Coffee Bean. Haha. Outlet Wisma Selangor Dredging (SDG). I applied through email to CBTL Human Resource. And I did mention I want to be place in outlet Ampang Point because it's nearer from my house. I kept on mumbling why dapat SDG bla3.

Tahu tak He planned the best! I thankful for what happened! Alhamdulillah dapat SDG sebab SDG merupakan the only outlet yang Mon-Fri (7am-8pm) Sat (8am-5pm) Sun (10am-5pm) and closed on Public Holiday! HAH! Tahu tak outlet lain, tutup at late night. 11.30pm, 1.30am pun ada, just like outlet Ampang Point tu. hahaha

On 1st of May, I celebrated the Labor Day! Sebab saya merupakan seorang labor pada ketika itu. Hoooooorrayy! And tomorrow saya dapat Rest Day. Wohooo! Tu yang boleh update status.

Fiuhhhh Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah! Oh and, I asked my friend yang kerja TopMan/TopShop, sebab nak compare salary. Kalau TOP tu, for part-time, sejam rm6. CBTL, sejam rm5. Mula-mula rasa macam nak tukar ke  Top, but! Alhamdulillah, Allah led me to rethink deeply the pros&cons. Memang beza rm1, tapi sebenarnya banyak beza & kerja dengan CBTL lagi untung. Makan minum ditanggung, balik awal, pubhols cuti etc etc. COOL!

Oh anyway, nama saya tu akak tu salah eja. She thought Faris with the Z, tapi it's actually Faris with the S. haha. Takpe lah, nevermind.. Banyak input berguna yang Allah bagi sepanjang kerja dekat situ. Saya kenal dengan akak pekak&bisu, learn the sign-language with her, then I made new friends, ada yang from Nepal. Awesome la! Alhamdulillah

Since started working ni, balik rumah, penat. Like always. And it has been 5 years la juga tak join bidang F&B ni. Dulu Kenny Rogers, kali ni cuba benda baru.

Ada la juga yang tertanya, kenapa ubah dari Sains Tulen tiba-tiba ke Coffee Bean. Haha. I said, saja nak cari pengalaman. Kerja part-time pun. Moga Allah berkati & redha ;]

Precious day in Pilah #24

Assalamualaikum. Last nightttttttt was awesome! Ya Allah. Alhamdulillah. Allah gave me chance untuk pergi Pre-Graduation Dinner. My first ever DINNER. Dulu waktu part1, tak dapat pun pergi Dinner Anugerah Dekan, sebab belum rezeki. Then waktu part3 pun not my rezeki untuk join Dinner Persatuan. Alhamdulillah rezeki dapat join dinner yang teramat lah precious.

MY pre-grad dinner. Rasa fun, rasa awesome, rasa best dapat dinner dengan kawan-kawan diploma yang dah 3 years bersama-sama mendaki.. Ya Allah harini pula my last class for Diploma, InsyaAllah. Rasa sedih la. Sedih sebab akan berpisah dengan semuaaaaaaaaaaa kawan-kawan. Kawan-kawan dah selama 6 semester ni, jumpa setiap semester, bertegur sapa, berborak gembira. =']

Thank youuuuu so much kawan-kawan! Thank you soooooo much Allah! Alhamdulillah. Sekarang ni tinggal work-hard-smart-super untuk final exam yang another seminggu ni. May Allah ease.

Akan rindu sangat semua. Kawan-kawan. Lecturers. Staffs. Cik Fara (hehe). UiTM Negeri Sembilan (Kampus Beting). Semualah! Seronok dapat bergambar dengan kawan-kawan malam semalam. Cuma kenapah aku tak ada ambil gambar dengan Mokhzani... Wehh mana kau wehhh... haha.

Now, i really-really-really want all thoseeeeeee photos yang entah siapa-siapa punya camera tah. Please. I want it all. Kenangan. Sepanjang diploma ni, I learnt so many things, luar dan dalam. Bersyukur ke hadrat ilahi sangat-sangat. Thank you Allah.

Oh and, pagi tadi was our presentation untuk Physics Final Project, and it went well. Alhamdulillah. Smooth. Simple. Madam pun tak berkerut-kerut. Alhamdulillah dipermudahkan.

Selalu pagi-pagi, kalau tak dapat solat dhuha, I will tend to baca Doa Solat Dhuha. Baca dalam tone UNIC bawa tu. Kalau tak ingat arab nya, baca la melayu nya. And everyday, before keluar rumah, baca "Bismillahi tawakal tu ala Allah, La hawla wala quwatta illa billah". Pastu bila masuk rumah, amalkan baca Surah Al-Ikhlas 3kali. Then before tidur, ambil wudu', baca Ayat Kursi, Dua kalimah Syahadah, 3 Qul. Kalau dekat rumah, before makayah or kita masuk tidur, salam cium mereka. ;]

Ini yang saya cuba untuk istiqamah buat everyday.. And I tries to ajak orang lain buat juga. Tapi tak ada la paksa. I just bagitahu, up to you nak buat ke tak. Amalan baik, I share. Buat dapat pahala, tak buat pun tak salah. Cuma recommended la untuk buat! Ohhh and! Not to forget! After solat, amalkanlah Sujud Syukur. ;] Kadang-kadang saya tak buat pun, sebab takut what will others think i'm doing kan

Sebenarnya! Ingatlah, "Jangan fikir apa yang orang fikir, tapi fikir apa yang Allah fikir". Itu la yang I keep on trying to utilize in myself. Masih belum 100% yakin. Astaghfirullahalazim..

Dan, not to forget brothers and sisters, Doa Qunut Nazilah. Orang kita ni, kalau benda dah teruk jadi viral semua baru nak baca doa Qunut Nazilah. Istiqamah la baca. Muslims all over the world, contoh Palestine tu, non-stop berjihad. Kita doakan lah untuk mereka. Everyday. Mana tahu pahala keep on mengalir je non-stop untuk kita nanti.. Wallahualam.

Apa pasal aku nak sangat ke sana?

Dulu, nak sangat belajar abroad, sebab rasa bila ke sana, barulah boleh start move one step mencari erti hidup, mencari kemanisan keindahan Islam. Tapi Alhamdulillah, jumpa dah walau di Malaysia ni. But still, ada impian nak ke abroad juga. Living the life outside comfort zone. Biar ada experience dealing with unexpected. ;]

59 days to go..

Assalamualaikum. Yeahh lagi 59 hari lagi nak habis diploma. Dan lagi 37 days lagi nak final exam. Gila tak weh! Gila weh... Aku ni macam terkapai-kapai lagi ke apa.. Takpe faris! Usaha! Final semester ni! Harus semangat!!!

Project "Precious day in Pilah" tu baru berapa belas isu.. Hadoi. Ni masih tengah cuti, kena pulun habis-habisan. Lepas ni tak ada cuti dah. Ghaaaaaaa. Akan rindu zaman diploma.. Sangat-sangat! Alhamdulillah dapat lalui hidup sebagai seorang pelajar diploma. Sangat awesome! Sangat cool! Sangat precious! ;]

Em-goi

Assalamualaikum. Hai! I've been home for 4 days now.. Sabtu petang lepas angah+cousin ambil dekat UiTM. I have been sicked since dekat rumah lagi.. hari ahad, 27th Jan. Sakit tekak.. sampai UiTM waktu lab bio dah start bertukar-tukar suara. Esoknya demam teruk. Dan demam.. dan demam.. dan demam.. dan Alhamdulillah, harini dah tak demam. Tapi masih batuk dan selsema.

Saya plan nak balik UiTM semula esok. Kawan-kawan cakap, "Tapayah balik la, cuti terus sampai habis CNY, hari jumaat takde kelas pun..".. I have to balik UiTM. Duduk rumah jadi macam tak cukup baju, sebab banyak dekat UiTM. haha. CNY pula kami cuti seminggu. ghaaaa orang lain cuti seminggu, aku cuti 2 minggu + 4 hari. Hahahaha berbekalkan 1 hari MC. Mampu?

Cuak betul aku kut tiba-tiba nanti UiTM keluar surat "Pengajian anda di-extend!". Nauzubillah min zalik... seminggu lebih tak attend kelas, rasa Ya Allah ruginya... banyaknya aku tertinggal... Tinggal less than 2 months nak Final Exam.. (wuuuu menangis aku nanti).. Tapi! Kena ingat! Everything happens for reasons.. Redha, Tawakal. ;]

I still haven't buy any pin number untuk sambung degree... Adakah ini one of the thing-that-should-let-it-be? I don't know.. I want to buy, tapi tak ada effort pun untuk pergi beli.

Akhirkata, I would like to give my gratitude to my fellow UiTM friends yang sangat super kind, care, helpful, loveable, concern!! Terima kasih wehhh, terharu sangat.. Will miss korang lepas habis diploma ni!

Aku sangat susah nak demam. Jarang. Bila kena sekali, zuppppppp seminggu kau! Thank you mak ayah sebab suruh makan, sediakan, this and that, kakak for being 'physio-in-the-house' ;]

Jzkk

Don't take it for granted

Assalamualaikum. ;]

This is a reminder for myself and to my brothers & sisters.

As we all known dalam Al-Quran ada banyak cerita-cerita pasal umat-umat terdahulu? Okay, perasan tak every time umat-umat itu ingkar dengan utusan Allah, mereka dapat 'bayaran tunai' from Him. Now, have you ever wonder why, kita, umat Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. bila ingkar arahan Allah, we still alive! Tak ada tiba-tiba 'final destination'..

And, have you ever wonder why in 2004, Dia hantar Tsunami dekat Aceh, and the news spread all around the world dengan pantasnya.. Kita panggil apa? Natural Disaster. And where does the 'natural' come from? It came from Allah, the Creator. Why He sent the Tsunami? He know what we don't know. And Dia nak warn everyone di Dunia dan Dia nak tunjukkan kebesaran Ilahi.

Yet.. mereka, kita masih di-awang-awangan. Ada satu ketika dahulu, Baginda mohon kepada Allah, hold 'bayaran' terhadap umatnya. Why? Sebab Baginda sayang sangat dengan kita. And Allah agreed. Why? Sebab Allah juga turut sayang dengan kita. He's giving us chances.. So many chances.. No payment needed. Free oxygen, etc.. Hoping that one day we will realize and repent. Repent is not a choice. It is an obligation.

Do you want, because of what we do, Rasulullah S.A.W. weep. He will cry because He feel pity for us, our action will lead us to opposite of the Jannah. How can He, a lovely, kind, Prophet tengok umat dia astray.. After all the signs that has been shown to us, from Allah..

All the Malays, yang muslim.. We have been raised in a muslim family, thus sometimes kita rasa "Tak apa, tak ___, aku dah Islam". Do not take it for granted. Haven't you look around? Those Reverts, ilmu Islam mereka lebih mendalam dari kita. I salute them! MashaAllah. Bila dalam Majlis Ilmu, penceramahnya adalah seorang Revert. Yang akan banyak tanya soalan tentang itu-dan-ini dalam Islam, is orang Islam yang dah bertahun-tahun dalam Islam. Tak rasa segan ke? Kita yang sejak kecil dah mengaji Quran, still kekurangan ilmu agama.

Why? Sebab kita take it for granted! Para reverts, once they enter Islam, they work so hard, mendalami Islam. They appreciate Islam macam itu la nyawa mereka. They do lot of researches  readings, untuk fully understand Islam, and live as a Muslim ikut Al-Quran & Sunnah.

Ya, memang benar dalam Ayat Kursi ada sebut "Allah hanya akan beritahu kita apa yang Dia hendak kita tahu". Tapi, kalau kita tak berusaha nak ambil tahu, memang forever la you tak akan tahu.

Allah tak akan ubah kita selagi kita tak ubah diri kita sendiri.

Read the Al-Quran daily, and understand the meaning. Baca terjemahan. If ada tak faham, ask around, Ustaz/Ustazah.

Oh and! Always renew your Syahadah.. Penting! ;]

"There is no Illah except Allah"

JZKK

Take note: Driver

Assalamualaikum. Alhamdulillah. So last wednesday, my sister still cuti. Company dia cuti 2 hari sempena Krismas. I asked her to be my driver for the day. Nak pergi Post Office, nak pergi kedai gambar..etc Then:

Sis: Amboi! You bawa la sendiri
Me: Uh? Boleh?
Sis: Hmmm bawa lah

Dalam hati, MashaAllah. Alhamdulillah. This will be the first time ever, bawa kereta kakak, luar dari kawasan rumah. Waktu solat Zohor tu, minta tolong Allah banyak-banyak. Kalau kakak serius la cakap tadi, I really need His help. Sebab I am afraid of driving out alone. Even though, memang masa yang di tunggu gila. Sebelum keluar I asked my sister again, "Serius ke ni?". And she replied "Confident ke?".

Memang la gabra. Tapi disebabkan nak sangat drive kereta, I said "Absolutely!". Alhamdullilah. Berjaya drove the car for 5 hours. Oh and I ajak Nizam to accompanied me.

Why I post cerita ni, sebab tadi my friend, WNA, text me. Update pasal tadi dia driving alone dalam hujan ke airport untuk jemput Ayah dia. On her way there, after habis baca Surah Yassin, KEDEBABOOOOMMM, an accident happened right in front of her eyes. The motorcyclist jadi superman. Alhamdulillah, orang tu okay. Tak cedera teruk. Tukang langgar minta maaf dan kata "Maaf saya tertidur".

Nak di jadikan cerita, the same thing ALMOST happened to me on that wednesday. Cuma, saya bukan tertidur, but ter-lepas pandang cermin belakang. Lepas dari traffic light, there's corner, I wanted to go left. I gave the signal to the left, I glanced left side-mirror, tak ada kereta. So I pun ke kiri la, out of nowhere muncul motor, I nearby hit him, tapi I pusing my stereng ke kanan while tengok side-mirror kiri tadi. And I forgot to tengok kanan, Alhamdulillah. Allah woke me! I nearly terbabas ke pokok.

Ya Allah waktu tu jantung ni macam terhenti, rasa macam nak tekan brake! Tapi Allah helped me, dia tenangkan my mind sekejap, so that I can slowly ke kiri semula sebab my simpang tu dah dekat sangat dah. Oh and that abang motor, haruslah dia jeling tajam dekat aku kan. Haha. Sorry bro!

Therefore, Don't forget to baca Bismillah, Doa naik kenderaan and Ayat Kursi before you start your journey. InsyaAllah, Allah will help you along the way.

Rabbi Yassir Wala Tu'assir, Wa Atmim Bi Kheir ;]

Precious day in Pilah #7

Assalamualaikum. Hai! Yesss saya tak tidur lagi. Sebab nak siapkan homework. Tapi, hadap 5 minit, hadap laptop semula. Tulis 5 minit, tekan keyboard 50 minit. Sebab malas nak guna otak macam mana nak lukis procedure ni. Astaghfirullah halazim.

Ustaz cakap "Kita kena tinggalkan sifat mazmumah; menangguh-nangguhkan kerja, malas, berkata buruk, dll". Acane nak ber-mahmudah faris oi kalau yang mazmumah ni kau tak gugurkan lagi dari rutin.

Kena keep on muhasabah diri! Final semester ni kena buat yang terbaik! Last semester sebagai budak Diploma Sains. Mesti buat yang terbaik! Wajib! Yang malas-malas ni boleh ganti dengan rajin-rajin. Force diri!

BE SEMANGAT! BE BE SEMANGAT! (cc: Hanif Rodzi, Hidayat Isa) ;]

I miss math so much T_T

Sanah Helwa Ya Akhi,

Assalamualaikum. Kalau ikut calendar orang putih, today is the day. Kalau ikut Islamic nya, it's on 3rd of Jamadil Akhir.

Above is from my eldest brother. Thank you abang! ;] Mak pun ada post juga, tapi mak orang first nyanyi lagu tepat pukul 12 a.m.

From Yayyyyy, it became.. Deyyyyyy

Assalamualaikum. Good Morning people! So I've thinking about this.. You know, after having such a not-so-good-end with the final paper.. Me myself I have to blame..

I have 6 days free and only used 1 day to studied all those 9 Chapters together in one night stand. Lepas tu going to exam like you have got it all, and when you got the paper, it was like WHATTTTT...

You know, I have became this person who suddenly rasa nakkkkkkk balik being on the list after I've gone soooo long of not in it. I felt guilty to my parents because I can't get what they want and hoping me to achieve.. HAHHH

I am trying and still trying to fully REDHA with it... Let Him do his job... And yeahh, if it doesn't go in the way that you want it, you really need to find a way how to deal with it. Dealing with me-having-not-so-good-grades lately is quite helping yet devastating.. HAHA

Kdah bye.

Simple seems okay!

Simple text message. I prefer this nowadays.. It might be caused by maturity.. I used to be that person who loves to type an essay-like for birthday wishes.. I will set a reminder 5-10 minutes earlier before 12 a.m., and start creating the birthday-text, & will make sure the message arrive to he/she approximately 00:00 hours

Haha. Yup that's me! I mean, was. Or will always be? It depends.. ;]


I'm currently studying Modern Physics, paper esok. Wuhuuuu takutnya! Belum 100% focus. Rabbi Yassir Wala Tu'assir, Wa Atmim Bi Kheir..

accelerating.............